Thursday, 28 September 2017

So. Um. Yes. It appears I'm not gone for good after all. (a.k.a. Story time with Bonnie)

*creeps in*

*looks around*

Is anyone here? Anyone still hanging round these days?? After I went and ditched you all....?

You are still here? oh goody, because have I got a bit of a story to share with you all! So have a seat, make yourself nice and comfy, grab a cup of hot chocolate (preferably with one or two marshmellows) and enjoy the story.  You ready? Well, ready or not, here we go.....

on with the story...

So I  have this friend whose name is David.

Anyway, part way through last year, I began to get 'vibes' that he liked me.

I liked David very much as a friend and enjoyed getting to know him better over a period of several months.  Eventually, in August sometime, David expressed his desire to begin a 'courtship' or 'intentional relationship'.  He discussed this both with my parents and with me.

I didn't say yes.

This was because I was about to head off to the United States for 2 and a half months and I didn't want to feel like I was leaving half my heart in New Zealand.  I wanted to enjoy my time over there and decided that I would revisit the idea when I came home at the end of January.  Mum and Dad also thought it would be a good idea to leave the idea on the shelf for the time being.

Fast forward to when I was away.  While I was in the US, I prayed about the idea of a relationship with David lots and thought about it a heap.  I was still in (relatively frequent) contact with David - we facebook messaged often and video called a few times.

Throughout the time I was away, I eventually came to the conclusion that I thought it was best to say no once and for all.  There were a few reasons for this decision which I am not going to go into here.  Suffice it to say I didn't have peace about it (my reasons were a bit more substantial than this) and I didn't feel that the timing was right.

So sometime in January I sent David a long email telling him all about it and what I wanted to do - namely, to just be friends.  I even offered to help him find someone else!  We were really good friends and I didn't want to break our friendship, but I didn't want him to think I was happy to marry him, because at the time I really couldn't see that happening.

David was gutted, poor guy.

I felt terrible dashing his hopes like that (and I didn't find it easy myself!), but I justified it by telling myself and him that it was better for us to break up then than further down the track when we were both far more emotionally invested.

Then I came home to New Zealand and life resumed again.

I began studying the last paper in the Legal Executive diploma and got a full time job not too long after that.  Life was really busy and I was enjoying it.

It so happened that the job I got (as a legal secretary in a law firm in the central city) was only a few hundred meters away from David's work (he's currently a service desk support person at a computer / IT company).  It's true - I walk out of my building, walk down the road, turn a corner and his building is pretty much right there!

We would often bang into each other going for a walk on our lunch breaks.  We also were still in contact and were in several of the same friend groups, including the camp leaders group, so we saw each other at things like that.  We ended up planning kid's camp together and occasionally if my other transport options didn't work out I would get a ride in to work with David.

For months we were just good friends.  I knew it was really hard for David because he wanted to be more than friends and didn't give up hope that I would change my mind.  Yet I stuck to my guns and would suggest other girls that he could consider (none of whom he really seriously considered).  I saw myself just as a good friend but nothing more.

I kept thinking to myself, "things can't stay like this forever".  Either I needed to change my mind and decide I wanted to be in a relationship, or else David needed to change his mind and set his hopes on someone else.  I hated the feeling of being in limbo, of it feeling like something had to snap.  I kept seeking God and thinking about the situation.  Both of us were praying that God would change one of our hearts.

And you know what?

He changed mine.

Over the last few months (probably from mid July onwards) I just kind of started to slowly fall in love with David.  I'm sure it was God changing my heart.  I got a few random little 'confirmations' that made me know for sure that I was making the right decision.  My whole outlook on the situation changed.  All the reasons why I had originally told him No were either sorted out or don't really matter that much.

And so I was left with no more excuses and a new appreciation for this man of God who kept pursuing me when I had consistently stubbornly refused him.

Let's talk about this man of God for a minute shall we! :)

He is 21 years old and lives about half an hour away from me and my family.  His family (he comes from a family of 11 children as well) has been friends with ours for as long as I can remember.
He has an incredibly strong faith and always encourages me in mine. Just like David in the Bible, he really is a "man after God's own heart".
He's really gentle and kind.
He's a lover of Truth.
He is a man of integrity who stands up for what is right.  I know that I never have to worry about his character.
He is passionate and persistent in pursuing what he believes in.
He's really good with kids.
And he's really handsome too. :)

Now that you know him a bit better, I'll continue with the story.

David says he started picking up on some vibes I apparently was sending that I was starting to be a bit more 'interested' than I had been.  I don't know about that, but I do know that we eventually decided the time had come to discuss where our 'relationship' (or lack of it) was at.

We went for a walk on our lunch breaks on the 10th of August and discussed it.

And after we had both shared where we were at, and talked about it all, we stopped on a bridge above a river with daffodils and blossom covered trees lining the banks.  And David officially asked me if I wanted to be his girlfriend.

And I said yes.

And it's that happening (and the events following) that prompted me to write this blog post.

We are officially in a relationship.  Or courtship.  Call it whatever you like, but we are in a relationship with the intention of marriage in the future.

And I couldn't be more happy. :)

David seems pretty happy too.  Which is rather a pleasant state of affairs for everyone involved.

This is an exciting stage of life and a part of the journey that neither of us have travelled before.  We are so enjoying getting to know each other better and better.  And developing those little 'inside jokes'.  And just really finding the whole adventure of love so exciting!

So yeah.  That's where we are at currently!

Hope you all are having a great week. :)

Love to you all,

Wednesday, 10 May 2017

The Hardest Post I've Ever Had to Write

Dear friend.

This is, like the title of the post seems to suggest, the hardest post I've ever had to write.  Why?  Because ending things is hard.  Bringing closure to my 'brain child', the little piece of me that sits on the Internet, is difficult.  I don't want to do it.

So then, why am I doing it?  Why am I writing this post to tell you that Bonnie's Blessings is being discontinued?

Because I feel that it is time for that to happen.

I even filmed a little video for you which shows how committed I am to this the video above.

When I began Bonnie's Blessings in January of 2013 I had no idea how long I would keep it going.  I have ended up continuing it for four years and I'm amazed at how the Lord has walked along this journey of blogging with me. 

I'm incredibly appreciative to all my amazing loyal readers and commenters.  Each one of you is special to me.

But it's time to end this particular blogging journey.

I wish I could say that my reason for ending it is that I'm too busy currently.  Yes I am super busy, but I have continued to blog for the past few weeks since I've been working full time reasonably successfully despite my busyness.  The fact is, I could continue it if I wanted to.

I'm turning 19 in a couple of weeks. I don't feel like this blog was just a 'stage of my younger life', but I do feel like in some ways I am moving on. Different stage of life now, different goals and priorities, all that sort of stuff.

I don't think that my lack of inspiration to write is just a writer's block.  I honestly think that, like all good things, this blog must come to an end sometime. 

I am not going to permanently delete this blog off the internet, at this stage.  I'd like to leave it up... then in the future if I ever feel sufficiently inspired I can just resume it.  I don't think the likelihood of that happening immediately is very high however, so don't get too excited!

I love to write, and this blog has been an incredible way for me to do that.  I've loved connecting with people through this forum and the blogs of many others.  I don't think my inspiration will ever be dry - perhaps I'll find some other way of indulging my urge to write.... ;)

Anyway. I just wanted to post to say that I'm so incredibly grateful to everyone who has come on the journey with me.  Whether you are a new reader or you've been here since the start (almost 700 posts ago!!), I would like to extend a heartfelt Thank You to you.  You are amazing.  You have inspired me and kept me committed.

Keep doing what you're doing.  I'm definitely going to stay connected in the blogger community (you can't get rid of me that easily!).

Praying the Lord's richest blessings on you all.  Have a nice life, won't you.

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Saturday, 29 April 2017

Dealing with Disappointment

Disappointment is something we all have to cope with, most of us many times during our lives.  We get our hopes set on something and then suddenly WHAM, that's not going to work out anymore so we go away and try to cope with the disappointment.

Saturday, 22 April 2017

Live it Well

Life is short; I wanna live it well
One life, one story to tell
Life is short; I wanna live it well
And you're the one I'm living for

I wanna sing with all my heart a lifelong song
Even if some notes come out right and some come out wrong
'Cause I can't take none of that through the door
Yeah, I'm living for more than just a funeral
I wanna burn brighter than the dawn

The band Switchfoot sing about the idea of life being short in the song 'Live it Well' which I have reproduced in part up above.  It's a great song - I love the lyrics and the tune is really catchy. Have a listen to it if you haven't before.

Tuesday, 18 April 2017

Bonnie's Bookshelf

We are now in the 4th month of the year. Although I'm super busy right now, I've been trying to save a little squidge of time in my week for reading (this is generally latish in the day on Sunday or else in my lunch break at work). Books are amazing and if you don't read you're missing out! :)

Tuesday, 11 April 2017

A + A // life in an office

Good morning! Good morning! Good morning morning morning!

Who's excited? I am! This is awkward and awesome... office edition :D Featuring some office life anecdotes and some random life anecdotes from the past few weeks. Enjoy.

Monday, 3 April 2017


"I love Wednesdays!" I thought to myself as I opened my eyes last Wednesday morning. Then I sort of thought about what I had just thought to myself. And was surprised at the sudden burst of positive-ness I just experienced!

Tuesday, 28 March 2017

The Lord's Servant

Today I'd like to think about what it means to be the servant of the Lord.

Tuesday, 21 March 2017

What I've Been Listening to // EXCITING NEWS!!

Music is amazing. I love it so much. And since I know you all absolutely adore my inspirational music choices (I'm just kidding, okay? :P) I just HAD to share my current favourites with you. :)

And, as a special reward for listening to all the songs, I'm going to share some exciting news at the end of the post.


Well it actually doesn't matter if you are ready or not because here comes the music....